The Hardest Day of my Life
Wednesday, 26 March 2014
On 28th February, I probably had one of the worse days of my life. I was told that our baby was screen positive in the NT scan. Our baby was in the high risk category for down syndrome. I wasn't told much but just that we would have to wait a whole week before we can see a doctor. On that day, I never knew I could cry out so many tears. I suddenly felt the overwhelming love for our baby. I think I realised how it really felt to be a mother. I realised that pregnancy/motherhood is not all rainbows and butterflies. I realised just how lucky I am to have such an amazing husband.
So in this Heart to Heart, I just share my experiences through the past few weeks. It's really tested our hearts and our patience. We held on to our faith and in the end, the Lord saw us through it all. I had never felt His presence like this before. Now I know how much love I have for our baby.
Watch the Heart to Heart below:
Now 3 weeks onwards with more test results. A rainbow has finally appeared after our storm. We were the 5% who were given with a false positive screening. Our baby went from having a 1/123 to 1/billion chance with Trisomy 21. Did our private doctor scam us into doing the expensive test? We'll never know and it doesn't matter. We're feeling so lucky and blessed right now.
We actually went for a baby check up today. Baby is super healthy and getting stronger by the day. Remember, most screen positive babies are born without down syndrome. Please mummies, don't worry yourself sick like I did.
I want to give a huge shout out to ALL the mothers out there. You are all amazing. I just feel so inspired by you guys out there. I have even more respect to the parents who are bringing up a child with down syndrome. You are absolutely amazing. It was reading your experiences that really helped us remember that no matter what happens, everything will be ok as long as the baby is born safely into the world. Every child is precious. Especially to their own parents.
I also want to say, reading your letters has helped me so much during our waiting period. I felt so much love. We receive an overwhelming amount of letters so I can't reply to most of you. However, I read EVERY single letter and I cherish each one. Thank you yet again for helping me pass through a difficult time once again.
Peanut has been kicking me so much these few days. I think our little one is trying to tell me he/she is growing stronger and stronger by the day.
Love, your friend Bubz xx
Ps. After an ultrasound yesterday, we found out the gender *winks* Well, only 60-70% sure from the doctors so we won't announce anything until a few weeks time when we're more certain. I'm already thinking of ways to announe the gender! Excitement!